Belluga
This work was the most moving, active in action kind of a work. My figures are usually standing, day dreaming something… But from the work “Self Denial” I really wanted to repeat that diagonal composition, also the sway of the clothing and the wind. This was the first work after the first series, which I was very excited to challenge a different color palette with some additional element added to the figure. Using the fabric as the garment was another shift, as it added a huge 3-dimentional quality that I was looking for. I still think where I should make the garment as fabric, and which part of the garment as paper. Mentally in this stage of work I had a lot of energy to express. I just finished first few series and they felt like small babies. I was ready to push my limits and try something different, way different- to go beyond my repeating habits. I thought it was not the time to create focused vision, but to explore as much as possible. Just the fact of adding the background, fabric on garment, and belluga were a lot to digest and my energy was big enough to take all that into one.
As you will hear in the behind the scenes video, Belluga has that characters that I really want to resemble; they are vast, powerful, and free, but so pure at the same time. The freedom that they show in water is what I want to experience in my own art, and I believe that comes from just embracing and becoming just the way I am. Insecurity comes from not knowing who I really am, which confidence and freedom comes from the courage to really investigate and encounter who I am even though if that is flaws or strengths. It all connects as a person and an artist, and every time I see Belluga they always have that quality of being free of their existence. Plus the fact that they swim and dance in water is a joy to watch. I believe it is a similar act when I know myself as the way I am, and being okay about it. Then fears and traumas won’t be a huge issue to give up or neglect. Ah, I wish seeing those Bellugas again.